awkward – Tiana Feng

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I’m super awkward. I always grew up feeling a little bit weird and out of place. I was always the person who didn’t know when I could talk in a conversation without feeling like I was interrupting someone else. To this day, I suck at small talk that isn’t about the weather or what day of the week it is.

Awkwardness used to feel more like a crutch, but now I find it a fun quirk. I don’t feel like a cookie-cutter person and makes life a bit more exciting. Plus, I found a group of awkward people to be awkward together.

There is a famous quote from Mia in Pulp Fiction that goes something like:

Don’t you hate that? Uncomfortable silence. Why do we feel it’s necessary to talk about bull in order to feel comfortable? That’s when you know you’ve found somebody really special. When you can just shut the hell up for a minute and comfortably share a silence

I’m surprisingly (or not really) a semi-awkward person. Are’t we all? When I’m in an uncomfortable situation I tend to feel obliged to talk , blurt out something even if it ends up being really stupid because silence as the alternative is just too uncomfortable.

Luckily, I found someone who I can have comfortable silences with. That doesn’t mean we don’t talk (hell we can talk for hours), but we can appreciate quiet moments. Whether it’s staring into each other’s eyes and smiling or sitting in the same room on separate laptops, talking is not a requirement.